Choice Leads to Serendipity.

I lied. I didn't go to the islands. I didn't go see Orcas breaching off the point of my kayak. I called and cancelled my reservation at the B&B and they said they wouldn't charge me, even though it's their policy to charge a late fee. I didn't have to ask, either. I'll be staying with them, later this summer.

Instead, on Wednesday, I went for a long meandering walk along Alki Point, watched the waves roll onto the beach, people-watched in their many arrays and stressed about work. As I decided what I would do for lunch I knew that nothing would taste as good as a new job.

I sent out my c.v. to 6 different posts that day, and I felt better than I had in months and months. I went for a long jog, I ate healthy, I loved speaking to people rather than hide away.

I began to think of someone who used to work at our site for one of our sponsors. She would always tell my boss what a great asset I was to the company, and that she never had to worry about my work, like she did at her other sites. She praised me to the moon. I considered how I could be in touch with her, to ask advice, request she be a reference etc. Thursday, I had two emails in my personal account from her!!! I didn't even know she had my address. She has questions about the regulatory process, which I am well-versed in. I told her what I was up to and she asked for my c.v. and sent a website with a huge listing of biotech/pharmaceutical jobs.

I am feeling the return of my free spirit, my jouissance I could have sworn was long dead. Nothing is as good as being in action in one's life. Nothing quenches saddness than taking charge, where there needs to be change. What I know now is that job-hunting is my number one priority over everything else. House-cleaning, working-out....blogging. Well, I'm on the computer anyway....:) A new job, continuing education is the key to saving myself from my ridiculous, morose ticking.

World Girl - Wanting to be in the World Again.