Life comes full circle faster than it used to.

Not so long ago, I wrote about Balash and my love for him. What do I do with myself now that his presence is not in my life? True, I broke up with him. True, he gave me some very good reasons to break up with him. Yet....I miss his spirit. I miss his smile and giggles, his thoughtful way of looking at the world. What I don't understand is how he could not have been thoughtful of me.

I don't feel like doing much of anything. I have forced myself to work-out, see friends, do things. But I don't wanna. I want my life back with Balash and I cannot have it. Not one place in my hear or brain trusts him.

The sun is shining, though. I read a book this weekend called, "Life of the Beloved: Spiritual living in a secular world". It moved me to make peace with what is so between Balash and myself. To generate peace, instead of anger. Doesn't always work. The author said it wouldn't always work. :)

Long time without word,
World Girl